Monday, April 18, 2011

OR Duty

First time I said to myself "This is it! This is really is it! I wanna be an ER nurse." Before I went to college, I never thought of being a NURSE or even a STUDENT Nurse or simply following the footsteps of my mom :) Back in elementary, the rehearsals of recognition had the part of "What do you want to be in the future?" and I never mentioned being a nurse, it's been TEACHER, Dentist, teacher and Dentist. Too far from where I am now, but there's still correlation. Since I started this and I've decided to LOVE my subject, I have to give all my might for the better of my client. 

Being in this path of profession, pressure has been there and inspiration come and go. Like in my case, everyday being a student there was no reduction of pressure. Everytime a C.I will say "nursing is not my first choice. This is not the course I would choose. This career is very difficult" displays on my mind that "is this really my place? why I am here?" and each time I see board exam results, seeing those familiar names make me say "This is so amazing, I hope I'll get the board exam one take only with a high grade!". See? Positive and negative criticisms are battling on my mind but Nothing is impossible IF I will strive!


Summer class is a very interesting semester, one semester to go and I'm done with my BSN. The situations were hot! First rotation with one of the most professional clinical instructor was in OR. Since this is the first time we will be having our actual operation! I did not volunteer, I wasn't ready, I wasn't in myself, I wasn't enjoying the environment and I ruined the impression of my clinical instructor in the first day. Nevertheless, it did not bother my performance the whole day, there were just some casualties but I was able to handle it.

But all of us handled an awesome cases! Amazing! In OR, you have to be clean, all the external blockage should be STERILE (very important) and including the shoes (grr! Why didn't I bring the clean shoes on the first day?). The OR cases that day encouraged us since it will help for the completion! We did not say "NO" for the opportunity. My C.I asked us who loves and likes the OR and who wants to be an OR nurse. I only raised my hand when she asked the like portion, since I am a consistent person, ER has been my love. But my C.I was a very good motivator, she added that in terms of financial, OR is a very good area to raise money, but still, being a nurse, we are not the boss to assign ourselves to where we should be.

One thing that I noticed of change to myself is that when I overcame the fear of blood and needles. I said to myself "This is where I belong!" I want to be not just a BSN but an RN and this will help my parents who have been sacrificing for my future. In return, a humble success will give them my key to our future.

I enjoyed OR and the experience is not a fail that with every mistake I should be emotionally depress. It even motivates me to give high credits to my failure that tomorrow I'll do much better! :)